Waarom word ik afgetapt. Ik doe niks
I live to Serve.
But I dont expect to slave
If I do good -it must be rewarded since then it may continue. Without any reward, recognition, friends, money, fame, love, kindness it bleeds to death.
I have served, why don’t you reward?
I have served completely.
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Updates
In 2020-2021 I was admitted to the GGZ. Behind doors I was force treated to loose all skills, ability, kind friends, network, kindness, love. All. I lost all. Since then 2020 I have been compromised. I have then been wiretapped by my chinese neighbours family Ruan for 5 years and the Police. I can do a little anymore, since 2020.
The resident psychiatrist apologized after 1 1/2 month in 2021, being the resident psychiatrist who force treated me against the law. I lost everything. He made a legal mistake, against the law in my case, for which he apologized, but did not correct. Made nothing up.
Before first lectures started
In 1990, just before university lecture started a fellow student of mining invited herself to my room (couch – bed – desk). Annabelle van Roosmalen. She said she wanted to study. I did not know what to do with this: why study before any lecture began? Did she want to make a move on me? Did she need help? I was not attracted to her, but concluded she needed my help for something.
She was sitting on my couch while she was socalled studying. It was on the couch and not behind my desk. She did not know anything. I did not touch her. She waved her hand. She left. We then spoke at the door of my room and never actually ever again, until an e-mail in 2025 popped up.
I still dont understand what her purpose then was. I never liked her attitude at all and knew she was trouble and thought she needed a social confirmation or support. I tried to comfort her. I did not understand why she chose me to ‘study.
Later on she declared that I raped her. Or intended to. She never told me of this! She told all the other students. But not me. So it never came up to tell my side of the story because of complete disbelief. Complete delusional from her side. Borderline? Or psychotic or worse, maybe forensic? Completely nothing occured between me and her. No intent. No act. No touch. No force. No crime. No persistence. No desire. No contact. What the hell happened in that crazy mind of hers? Just innocence. For 35 years I was somewhat unaware, she can’t get fame. For fictional delusions.
Ex
I am formally by law divorced in 2013. In 2012 we seperated. She requested mariage-end. She liked to mine me as her slave after divorce, thinking she was still married with all the benefits, but no burden, loyalty, goodness or fairness. I think she still has to benefit from the marriage. She has no idea that if she was not married she would live in Africa as a nun, as she had planned, but not succesful.
Rewarded
I have worked since approx 10 years old. I have done a job, that is generally through ages only allowed for max 20 years: I have bought it with the price of health. I have done it for 43 years. My rating is a 12. Now it is gone.
I add a thing.
I know truth hurts for socalled biological parents and psychiatric caretakers and societal watchers. I have written “Oproep 115B” in the magazine for schizophrenics “Open Geest.” I have been member / patient since too long.
